This week has been CRAZY! With Mother’s day and one of my dearest friends graduating from Vanderbilt University tomorrow, I haven’t had time to breathe hahaha! I have a personal victory and it comes in the form of a picture… I found this amazingly cute dress for graduation tomorrow and I never did I imagine that I could squeeze my fat ass into it but I tried it on anyway and guess what?!?!? It fit like a glove, I love it! I am so freaking happy I could do cartwheels LOL I know I haven’t been updating for a while but I still have been living the life!!!!! I am going to post a pic of my amazing dress (while it’s still casual, I never imagined that I would look good in a dress like this) but bear with me, it’s a little blurry! hahahah I will post pics of me in it tomorrow!

I woke up this morning with a sense of pride and relief. I am proud to be an American and I continue to send my thoughts to our troops and congratulate them for their efforts and ultimate success in the defeat of a real evil. The war on terror is not over, however today I stand proud of my country and my country men! We must remain humble and remember the pain that was experienced on 9/11 but today demonstrates that we will not quit!

Hubs is taking me shopping today as a “treat” for my 6 day work week! YAYAYAYAY!!!!!! I’m thinking a new coach bag for all my hard work hehehe LOL

(Source: thedeatheater, via feelingoftemptation)

HEY LOVES!!! Ohhh I feel so much better, I woke up this morning and just kind of snapped back into life! (perhaps I’m bi-polar or manic) I took a run for the first time in over 2 weeks, no junk food, and I didn’t need coffee to get going! I have wondered why I have been in this rut and I have come to the conclusion that I am no longer setting “official” goals—-they just fuck me up! This is what always happens, I am here to encourage others and push myself but setting those “set monthly goals” just fucks me over everytime :) OOOHHHH it feels SOOOOO much better to be back!!!!

I LOVE YOU ALL!! Thanks for all your encouragment through my “crazy episode” :)

Now its time for a night with Zachary Quinto and Chris Pine in Star Trek (SWOON!!!) ohhh and Karl Urban…Yummy

Dear Tumblrs,

I am terribly sorry for my absense over the past couple of weeks. It’s been a rough couple of weeks and I have been dealing with my inner demons. I am sure most of you can understand the feeling of helplessness and depression. I have been so depressed here lately about SO many different things, it’s been so hard to push past them. I didn’t want to bring any of you down, but don’t think I haven’t been checking on you :) Thank you for all your messages of concern for me, I have appreciated it during my time of darkness. My job has just taken its toll on me, I have no social life and I feel like I am losing my grip on things. I am a work-aholic but I need a life outside Vanderbilt, I know I am very fortunate to have a job in these hard times but 50-60 hours a week is becoming difficult not only on my mind but also my body. It’s hard to stay awake but it’s also hard to sleep. I’m 23 going on 50 and I’m having a hard time staying optimistic. Thank all of your for your patience and concern, I’m slowly bouncing back… I love and miss all of you!

-kayla

I’m ditching the internet for a nice night with a good book! Goodnight everyone, Eat Well, Sweat Hard and Think Thin!